Maybe we’re all starting over.
Lately it feels like the internet is full of people starting over.
Everywhere I look there are posts and videos of people in their late twenties or thirties talking about changing direction — leaving jobs, moving cities, picking up new hobbies, rethinking what they want their lives to look like. It almost feels like an entire generation pressed the reset button at the same time.
Maybe it’s just part of getting older. Or maybe the last few years shifted things for everyone in ways we’re still trying to understand… or may never fully understand.
Either way, I’m feeling it too.
My mind feels too crowded.
It’s full — full of thoughts that appear at random times. Little observations. Ideas that drift in while I’m doing something ordinary like washing the dishes or chatting with my pups. Most of them disappear just as quickly as they arrive.
And it. eats. at. me.
So I’ve decided to clean up these tornadoes in my head and start writing them down.
Avoiding the algorithm
I’ve had this deep-seated feeling that becoming a content creator might benefit me somehow (don’t lie — I know you’ve felt this too).
But every time I start, I quit just as fast. I plan and plan for days, watch motivational reels, get inspired… and despite all that, the dark thoughts take over:
You’re not pretty or skinny enough.
You need a better setup and gear.
You’re wasting your time — get a real job.
(I swear my luteal phase is my worst enemy.)
Social media moves too fast for me. Everything feels like it has to be perfectly polished, summarized to a tee, or else it’s not worth sharing.
It’s overwhelming. And to be honest, I’m scared of the scrutiny. I’ve always been scared.
But I want to start over and make this chapter meaningful.
My hope is that the more I pour my thoughts into these pages, the less I’ll worry and the more I’ll actually do with them. Maybe I’ll become comfortable posting. Maybe I’ll learn to be more authentic with my words. Maybe it’ll eventually trickle into other places online.
So in this safe blog bubble of mine, I’ll be avoiding the algorithm.
At least for now.
If you happened to stumble onto my site and made it this far… wow.
Here’s a tiny hug:
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If this resonated with you, subscribe. Hahaha — just kidding, nothing’s set up yet. But if you’re interested in following my journey, feel free to mentally reserve a seat.
Thank you for being here.
– Brianna 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯
